This year is going to be one of those strange times when we don't blow the Shofar on the first day of Rosh Hashanah, since it falls out on Shabbos Kodesh. The Gemara (Rosh Hashanah 29b) says we don't blow Shofar on Shabbos because of a g'zeira שמא יטלנו בידו וילך אצל הבקי ללמוד, perhaps you may take the Shofar in your hand and you'll go to an EXPERT to learn, and end up carrying four amos in the public domain.
Let's try to understand this on a deeper level.
Rebbe Nachman (Likutei Moharan, Torah 6) teaches that complete Teshuva requires being both בקי ברצוא AND בקי בשוב. The term רצוא refers to times of positive spiritual ascension, whereas שוב represents moments of falling. If a person only sees Hashem in the UPs of life, he is missing something. A yid must also be a בקי בשוב, realizing that even in his low/weak/difficult moments, Hashem is right there with him. וְאַל יִתְיָאֵשׁ עַצְמוֹ לְעוֹלָם, כִּי גַּם שָׁם נִמְצָא הַשֵּׁם יִתְבָּרַךְ, בִּבְחִינַת: וְאַצִּיעָה שְׁאוֹל הִנֶּךָּ. DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE.
After an entire month of Elul, a month of Ani L'Dodi V'Dodi Li (a month of tapping into the Teshuva of both Ratzo and Shov, fortifying his belief that Hashem is with us all the time) we then come to Rosh Hashanah and we are mamlich Hashem. We coronate Him as המלך, The King.
Being mamlich Hashem means for EVERYTHING. ומלכותו בכל משלה. The good times and the seemingly not-good times. The UPs and the DOWNs. The Ratzo AND the Shov. If Hashem is Avinu, He is our Father for everything. If he is malkeinu, He is our King for everything. Hashem's malchus is not like human malchus, limited by its particular size, demographic, and jurisdiction. Hashem's malchus is all-inclusive; hence, He is the King of all kings.
We don't blow Shofar on Shabbos because we are afraid lest you journey to a בקי to learn. Certainly, journeying to an expert who has clarity and is knowledgable about Shofar is commendable, but it's actually not the avoda of Rosh Hashanah. The avoda of Rosh Hashanah is to stay where you are, and be mamlich Hashem right there. You may be in a state of not knowing, a state of safek/struggle/haziness. You "don't know how to blow Shofar." But guess what? You are tasked with the opportunity of being a בקי right where you are, in your state of שוב; to become a בקי בשוב! Pronounce that Hashem exists right here. הנך!
There is no need to travel to that בקי who knows, to that Baki who is holding, to that Baki who is in the realm of Ratzo. Indeed, וילך אצל בקי has the gematria of 299, the same as רצוא! Instead, we are taught to remain where you are, in your state of unknowing, your state of שוב and find Hashem there.
If you think about it, this is actually the greatest proof and testament to one's accepting of Hashem as the true King over everything. Because if a person only sees Hashem in the רצוא of life (the UPs, good times, and moments of clarity/ascension/aliyah), and doesn't see Him in the שוב (the DOWNs, the not-seemingly-good times, and moments of safek/struggle/yerida/nefila), then certainly he hasn't fully coronated Hashem as King over everything.
Rebbe Nachman said regarding Rosh Hashanah: "זה החג שלי", this is my holiday! Why? Maybe because it encapsulates his primary teaching that he introduced to the world: אין שום יאוש. By saying "Rosh Hashanaha is my holiday," Rebbe Nachman is perhaps giving us a clue as to the essence of Rosh Hashanah: namely, it's a day of not giving up hope. We are meant to walk into Rosh Hashanah בטוחין, completely trusting in Hashem! We take hair cuts, wear our nicest clothing, and eat delicious foods.
Adam HaRishon was born on Rosh Hashanah, and subsequently sinned. What happened next? Hashem said to him: איכה (AYEKA), where are you? Every year Hashem asks us this same question: Can you find Me right now, wherever you are? Do not attempt to hide or travel to some other lofty place (וילך אצל בקי ) to find Me. Realize I'm right here.
Rosh Hashanah is specifically celebrated at the beginning of the month, when the moon is covered/concealed/hidden. בכסה ליום חגנו. We are called upon to see Hashem everywhere and never give up hope!
Because if you can find Me here (wherever you might be), you can find Me everywhere!
Wishing you a Ksiva Vchasima Tova,
Ori